Confused. Disoriented. Demotivated.
I can't find the exact words that I'm feeling right now but nothing seems to be going well. Grandma just passed away. It happened all too fast. I still can't believe that she is gone. Seeing her in the coffin is just so unreal, like this is just one bad dream. Do I have any regrets? No real regrets except I wish I had spent more time with her, visiting her more often when I'm KL instead of getting my usual fix of asam laksa at Madam Kwan's. This is probably the first time that I'm really grieving for someone close to me. It's tough and unpleasant.
To be honest, I haven't quite blogged for a long time. 6 years perhaps? Around there I guess. The past couple of years have been one of the happiest times in my life so far. What brings me back here? Sadness. With no where to really express it so here is my last resort.
I just wish I had more direction in life... more motivation and more energy to do something... but what?
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